Chris Kemp White

If I Linger (Remixed)

Chris Kemp White
Chris Kemp White


Mostly an apology, “If I Linger” makes a good show starter. Just as Ringo sang, “What would you do if I sang out of tune,” this song absolves me of all stage malfunction-related guilt. This includes singing out of tune.


Okay, it’s not really about performance at all, but about the failings of a wallflower. I distinctly remember youth paralysis at social events–an inability to simply introduce myself. For years I thought I was cursed, but later realized I experienced the same insecurities as everyone else. Hanging back was my coping mechanism. In later years (around 30) I flip-flopped. Since then I stick my hand out and introduce myself obnoxiously. 


If my hands shake, words fail

If I fail to be clear

If I drift off, eyes glaze

I don’t seem to be here

To be here


If my tongue seizes, lips move

I draw a sigh

If the wind blows, trees sway

I move side to side

Side to side


If I wander, distracted

I fail to be commit

If I can’t pretend, shut down

I still want you here

I want you here


If I linger, too long

And I won’t go home

Forgive me; forget me

And show me the door